Boy, You're Gonna Carry That Weight, Carry That Weight A Long Time

My phone finally broke today. Screen went completely stupid. However, I did get to see Kavan and James together for the first time since 2008. Met up with Jeff, the lead in Eat Your Heart Out. I guess it was a "production meeting"? Whatever. Talked about casting this week. So hard to stay on track. Don't understand why this is all so stressful and draining, as if another force inside me is pulling the opposite way. Never been so mutely excited for something I really want to do-- it almost feels like unexcitement/dread.

Need to learn to balance my life better this time. Didn't do well dispersing my efforts and attention today. Not everything is purely, completely devoted to filmmaking anymore, which I'm glad. I feel more like a real human being this time. I think I'll be a better filmmaker because of it. It definitely helped me write better. Now to figure out the production part.